What do I do?

As a little girl, all I wanted to be when I grew up was be a doctor. That slowly changed to wanting to be a nurse and then through my adolescent years it changed (again) from Psychologist to Physiotherapist to Speech Pathologist, Occupational Therapist... You get the drift, suffice is to say I wanted to do something in health.

When the HSC came and went and I found out I hadn't done nearly as well as I hoped I found myself scouring the UAI book to see what I would be able to get into. And Nursing was the winner. I changed my preferences with the expectation that I'd endure only a year and transfer to something I "really" wanted to do. Well, as it turned out, the little girl who wanted to be a nurse all those years ago shone through, and I found something that I loved and was good at.

Once I started nursing I found that my focus changed, while I still loved my job and the people I worked with, I found that now I was working, all I wanted to do was get married and have babies.

And that I did. It may have taken a little longer than I wanted but now I sit here, typing this, watching master 0 kick and squeal at God knows what, I can also hear master 2 and a bit squealing with delight as he plays in the backyard with the dog. And it is with that, that I know my life is complete and this is what I was put here to do.

I don't care anyone says, nothing quite feels like home more than holding your sleeping baby in your arms and knowing that it doesn't get any better than this. I know it's arrogant of me to think that my experiences of being a mother far out weigh any one else's experience with whatever they believe they were made for, but you know what? I'm ok with that.

I'm ok with knowing that there are two little people that rely on me to get up of a morning, that demand everything and more of my heart and soul and make even the darkest days seems bright.

Now, when people ask me what I do, my reply is no longer "I'm a Nurse". I proudly say "I'm a mum". Closely followed by "I'm also a nurse".

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